Planning and planning 2010

Just felt that this week is a good week for reflection. I have always rush and try to finish things on time. Just like for my reflection, I set to set today aside for reflection but ended up not really planning well and rush off to do my work. I need to learn to take things slower. Relax.

Reflection:
I have been eating instant noodles, cooking sometimes, having canned food for my lunch for the past 4 years plus during my career life in AIA. This is because I always have night appointments and ended up going home late at home at around 10 or 11pm sometimes. This in turn causes me to turn in late at 1am or 2am and wake up late the next morning at 10am or 11am to justified my sleep of at least 8 hours. Unless I have appointments in the morning/afternoon, I will be able to wake up early, have lunch with my clients and be very happy with myself with accomplising much during the day. Been thinking and thinking, do I really have to be like this? For the next 1 year? For the next 2 years? or 10 years? Of cos I enjoy my freedom of waking up at whatever time I like, something that is almost a luxury for most working adults or even students. But, this could mean lesser time for my family and friends.

Action to take:
I am actually thinking of relief teach in the morning. How's that? marvelous if I could! I love to teach and I love children! If I can spend my morning 7am to 1pm teaching students at a nearby Primary School at certain days of the weeks. It will be great! Action to take, to visit Woodgrove Primary School to apply for relief teaching again! Been there 10 years ago to teach Primary 2 kids and I love them so much. Beside this, I could try to ask for more morning and afternoon appointments. Have lunch with all my existing clients. One at a time. In a year, I will have catch up with all my clients at least once for lunch in a year. Great for building relationships!

Reflection:
Been late for almost all my life. Late for school is a norm for me, whether in my Secondary School, JC life or University days.... and I have been quite proud of it... 'cos my discipline master actually pleads me to come early and not giving me punishments because he quite likes me I think. I didnt know that being late can has tremendous impact in my life but now I realised. It really does. My agency has labelled me as someone who is always late. One of my ex bf has literally left me because he cant stand me for being always late, some of my prospects have literally ban me because I was late. My spiritual baby now has been telling me that she hates people who are late. Being late does not only impact my life, Shirley. While I can think and say that it's my life. I live however I want. But it's not. When I am late, I have wasted people's life waiting for me, because time = life.

Action to take:
I resolve to be early for all my appointments. I resolve to set the reputation of a girl who doesnt waste people's life by being late. I need to resolve in my heart that this is important. It impacts not only my life but the life of people around me. I have to take every appointments time as extremely important. Every meeting time is extremely important. Help me Lord as I repent and Holy Spirit set such an awakening in my heart. You are the one who can change me. Thank you Lord.

Okay, time to plan for my life again.

Reflections:
one of my friends ask me if I would like to join him to Cambodia for mission, to help the poor lately. As i read through the website by Operation Hope Singapore, suddenly I was thinking. The only way that I could leave a legacy for my people, for the next generation is to do something, start a ministry, something that will impact the people of some people in the world. And this must come from the vision from the Lord. Only with Him, can our plans succeed. This mission and vision must come from God Himself for He knows best. I need a mentor. Mother Teresa will be one of my mentor as I study into her life of serving in love.
I always heard the Lord says to me, "SHirley, you are going to do something great and mighty for me!" My life is not wasted and I will serve my lord. With men, it is impossible. But with God, all things are possible.

Prayers:
Dear Heavenly Father, You knitted me in my mother's womb. You know me since I was young. You have great plans for me, this I know. You have given me talents and gold that I have not fully discovered. You have placed in me a compassion for souls and people. You have given me love that I can love others. Dear Lord, when people see and think that it is impossible. Who am I? The timid, shy and low confident Shirley. What can she do for the Lord. But I know Jesus, my delieverer, my Savior, my Hope and my Strength. He is going to use what the world consider foolish to shame the one who think he is wise. Lord, you have given me a desire to serve You. You have bless me beyond what I can imagine. My life is in Your hands. You will use it all for the glory of Your name. Jesus, the Name above all Names. I am going to take thing one step at a time. Listening to You to guide me in every steps. Help me stay close to You. Satan, get lost in the Name of Jesus! you have no place and no right in my life. Get lost get lost and Get LOST! In the name of Jesus! What you have meant for evil, God has meant it and can turn it around for Good! I serve a mighty God! Thank You Jesus!