Planning and planning 2010

Just felt that this week is a good week for reflection. I have always rush and try to finish things on time. Just like for my reflection, I set to set today aside for reflection but ended up not really planning well and rush off to do my work. I need to learn to take things slower. Relax.

Reflection:
I have been eating instant noodles, cooking sometimes, having canned food for my lunch for the past 4 years plus during my career life in AIA. This is because I always have night appointments and ended up going home late at home at around 10 or 11pm sometimes. This in turn causes me to turn in late at 1am or 2am and wake up late the next morning at 10am or 11am to justified my sleep of at least 8 hours. Unless I have appointments in the morning/afternoon, I will be able to wake up early, have lunch with my clients and be very happy with myself with accomplising much during the day. Been thinking and thinking, do I really have to be like this? For the next 1 year? For the next 2 years? or 10 years? Of cos I enjoy my freedom of waking up at whatever time I like, something that is almost a luxury for most working adults or even students. But, this could mean lesser time for my family and friends.

Action to take:
I am actually thinking of relief teach in the morning. How's that? marvelous if I could! I love to teach and I love children! If I can spend my morning 7am to 1pm teaching students at a nearby Primary School at certain days of the weeks. It will be great! Action to take, to visit Woodgrove Primary School to apply for relief teaching again! Been there 10 years ago to teach Primary 2 kids and I love them so much. Beside this, I could try to ask for more morning and afternoon appointments. Have lunch with all my existing clients. One at a time. In a year, I will have catch up with all my clients at least once for lunch in a year. Great for building relationships!

Reflection:
Been late for almost all my life. Late for school is a norm for me, whether in my Secondary School, JC life or University days.... and I have been quite proud of it... 'cos my discipline master actually pleads me to come early and not giving me punishments because he quite likes me I think. I didnt know that being late can has tremendous impact in my life but now I realised. It really does. My agency has labelled me as someone who is always late. One of my ex bf has literally left me because he cant stand me for being always late, some of my prospects have literally ban me because I was late. My spiritual baby now has been telling me that she hates people who are late. Being late does not only impact my life, Shirley. While I can think and say that it's my life. I live however I want. But it's not. When I am late, I have wasted people's life waiting for me, because time = life.

Action to take:
I resolve to be early for all my appointments. I resolve to set the reputation of a girl who doesnt waste people's life by being late. I need to resolve in my heart that this is important. It impacts not only my life but the life of people around me. I have to take every appointments time as extremely important. Every meeting time is extremely important. Help me Lord as I repent and Holy Spirit set such an awakening in my heart. You are the one who can change me. Thank you Lord.

Okay, time to plan for my life again.

Reflections:
one of my friends ask me if I would like to join him to Cambodia for mission, to help the poor lately. As i read through the website by Operation Hope Singapore, suddenly I was thinking. The only way that I could leave a legacy for my people, for the next generation is to do something, start a ministry, something that will impact the people of some people in the world. And this must come from the vision from the Lord. Only with Him, can our plans succeed. This mission and vision must come from God Himself for He knows best. I need a mentor. Mother Teresa will be one of my mentor as I study into her life of serving in love.
I always heard the Lord says to me, "SHirley, you are going to do something great and mighty for me!" My life is not wasted and I will serve my lord. With men, it is impossible. But with God, all things are possible.

Prayers:
Dear Heavenly Father, You knitted me in my mother's womb. You know me since I was young. You have great plans for me, this I know. You have given me talents and gold that I have not fully discovered. You have placed in me a compassion for souls and people. You have given me love that I can love others. Dear Lord, when people see and think that it is impossible. Who am I? The timid, shy and low confident Shirley. What can she do for the Lord. But I know Jesus, my delieverer, my Savior, my Hope and my Strength. He is going to use what the world consider foolish to shame the one who think he is wise. Lord, you have given me a desire to serve You. You have bless me beyond what I can imagine. My life is in Your hands. You will use it all for the glory of Your name. Jesus, the Name above all Names. I am going to take thing one step at a time. Listening to You to guide me in every steps. Help me stay close to You. Satan, get lost in the Name of Jesus! you have no place and no right in my life. Get lost get lost and Get LOST! In the name of Jesus! What you have meant for evil, God has meant it and can turn it around for Good! I serve a mighty God! Thank You Jesus!

Today is 22 Oct 2009

Yup, into the 22nd day of October. Stayed at home the whole day today except going out to the nearby Vista Point for my lunch and fav. almond tea. Had some time set aside in the lazy afternoon to read a book. Chosen "Boy meets girl" which I hasnt touched for some time. Was inspired again to trust in the Lord and wait for the perfect one for me. As I reflected, did some washing of clothes today, I believed that I have grown more maturely in my behavior and thinking towards relationships. I have grown to be more womanly and is learning to take care of my future family, doing the laundry, cooking meals, tidying with house and growing in my inner beauty. Something which I seriously lack in the past, always waiting to be served by my partner, being pampered too much. I thank God that after all the "shattered dreams", I have grown. More beautifully I believe. One part of the book wrote, " In scripture, Peter tells Christian women that their beauty should be that of the inner selves - "the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight" This is one verse that I hold dear to my heart now. I really yeans to grow in the beauty of my inner self and I know this can only be the work of the Holy Spirit. I dream of my future family, my godly husband and together we raise up godly children. How beautiful! How amazing, and to me now, it takes more than a miracle. But Lord, help me remember in your promises and visions that I will be married one day in a beautiful white church. Amen!

Planning for the new year

Today is Wednesday. Time to do some serious planning and reflection for next year. I have just ordered some diaries and calenders 2010 for my clients. It's that time of the year that I got really busy with planning for Christmas, writing cards, delivering diaries, drawing and making cookies again! Yup, though I still have a month plus to finish up my production for 2009. Yes Lord, I shall not worry at all. I shall trust in You to deliver me. You specialised in miracles. Yes, it will be a miracle if I can achieve MDC for this year. I have almost $10k to go for this 1 month plus. But even my boss believe in my God, that if I pray and believe, it will come to pass. =)
He told me there he always see miracles in my life and I praise God for all the miracles that You have given me. My boss even promised me a trip to USA Seattle for me to see my fav. killer whales! My childhood dream if I can achieve MDC. Because it really will be a miracle if I can do it! Lord, I commit this plan into your hands and pray that you guide me through and grant me wisdom of knowing who do I call and look for. Thank you!

Beside work, i need to plan on how to grow in the Lord. Recently, my colleagues been asking me to go for Bible Study Fellowship class and I think what a great idea. There I can grow in the words of God and meet new friends. Been stagnant for some times. Looking for ways to enlarge my social circle and guess having more Christian friends is the way to go. SDU and stuffs..... though my pastor has encouraged me to go for SDU to meet new people but hey, dont know... still lack of guts to go now.

Next, will be my physical health. Tried gym and like it. Tried running and like it. But after not doing it for some times, I find myself back to the "lazy" mode. slacking and easily fatigued. Need to get back on track. Need to get into shape and feel good and healthy. Need to take care of my body because it is th etemple of the Holy spirit. Need to change my diet and no more magi mee always for lunch. Need to change my lifestyle and exercise 3 times a week. =)

There are so much things for me to do yet I have been wasting time thinking about the past. It a new year soon and a new life for me. Shirley, jia you!

Amen

Dear God,
Time passes quickly. It is already coming to the end of the year.
Many things have happened in September. Firstly, Dr. Tan Siang Yang
was here and as usual, I enjoyed his teachings so much. Thank God for that.
Secondly, I had a car accident. A pick up crashed onto me from my side and
thank God my car is not really badly hurted and I'm safe. Thank God for his
protection. =) Thirdly, preparing for my sister's wedding... got a very formal
long dress for being her bridemaid. Hope the wedding gonna turn out wonderful.
Fourthly, went to Precious Moment's event and took some nice pictures with them!
Fifth, breakthrough in my work again as God begin to bring people to buy insurance
from me... I mean people really called me and said they wanna buy insurance.
One brother from church said he wanna buy insurance, my step mom refer her friend
to me and I closed her in 10 min, one friend called and said she going for medical check up
soon and wanna buy insurance before that, another realised the impt of insurance after seeing
all the "disasters" in the world, wow..... this is the grace of God! Definitely! =)
Today's message is on making decisons based on kingdom's sake.
Im amazed by God's miracles again! You are asking me to put my trust in You
for You never fails. People can fail, people can change but You are there for me. Always.
You are my only Hope. I will trust in You. Thank you Jesus.
I love You,
Shirley

Another month is soon over!

Thank you Lord, my CHFC is finishing soon!
Im impressed and very glad with myself that i am taking the accelerated program
and is going to finished the whole course in 8 months!
Thank you Lord for His grace to help me through it all, have passed all papers thus far.
Thank you Lord for speaking to me today that I should stay at home instead of going to office.
My period came today and I was in pain! My back ache again, guess I havent been exercising, thats the reason why my backache is back. So thank God I can stayed at home to lie down, else I may faint somewhere. Manage to finish preparing for my paper on Thursday! Tomorrow, I should go to office early and do my calling. I have so much callings to do! I havent had any appts lately! Gosh, have to meet people! Lord, help me in my callings and appts!
Lord, Help me to Reach my target for this year. Help me to remember that all I need to do is to honor you. Sorry Lord, that I always fail in some ways... But Lord, you are faithful. You will neevr leave nor forsake me. Thank you Jesus! Amen!

Breakthrough!!!! Finally! God is good!!!

Never give up! Never quit!!!!
I persevere on.... Haven't close any life cases since the beginning of May till now.... been 2 months plus... and I'm thinking of quitting..... don't blame me pls... I only think, I know I won't action =) 'cos the disappointment is real.... I have work hard but the fruits are not coming in... But throughout these 2 long months... I have not doubt God's providence and love for me! so I continue to press in and even as I shared with my cell on last Thursday!
Delight in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart! Delight means to really enjoy God's presence.... be very happy just being with Him! =)
I had a date with God on Wed! Went out and take the Mrt so that I can journal down my date with God on my way to Orchard. Had a great time with God and I sense Him all around... amazingly, my troubles seem small and insignificant when I rest in Him.
I remember I prayed really sincerely one of the days this week, "God, pls help me to close a life case soon....." and I had a breakthrough on Sat! I closed 1 life case in the morning! I couldnt believe it! I mean, the client take up a plan with a monthly budget higher than what I have planned for him! Then I closed another 2 life and 4 Accident & Health cases in my 2nd appointment in the afternoon! =) What a breakthrough!
And today, I went to my 3rd appointment of this weekend and I closed another 1 life, 1 shield and 2 A&H plans. Total = 11 cases! Wow! Praise God for this breakthrough! It is all by God's grace that I managed to close all these cases! My prospect came in with a mindset that says "he won't buy any insurance from me." I know it because the first word he says is he thinks that economy is so bad, nobody is buying insurance now, he won't want to commit to anything too.
But I am determined before I see him to make sure he is protected with insurance as he doesnt have any insurance at all and he is the breadwinner of the house with 2 kids! And I did with God's favor and help! =)

Gotten my Shape Run's race pack today too! Haaaa...... gonna train well.... i only have one week left! I will do it! =)

It's July! Shirley press on!!!

Yup, I havent been blogging for a long time! That's bad. This means that I haven't had an inspiration or been doing my reflection for a long time.
The fact is, I am not in the mood of blogging. I think i have been through quite a stressful and teary May and June 2009.
Firstly, after getting the car, I lost a surposing "can be good friend" who inspires me to be better in life. That is sad. I went through a period of having to deal with the loss and in my loneliness, memories of Brandon keep coming back to huant me. I went through photos that we have taken... hundreds and hundreds of them.. and i couldnt believe that I have really lose him in my life. I haven't had the mood to take any pictures now... but im trying again. Those emails and memories... 3 years of going through sweet and trying moments with him... I didnt give up at all... but he did. He gave me up long ago.
Period of grieve, almost every week that I will break down and cry. It has been a year since he left and I am still grieving.
Shirley, move on! I know you can do it! You can do all things through Christ who strengthen me! Yeah.... Im doing well.... im getting better each day...
Secondly, after getting my car... i get stress with closing deals... as a results, I haven't break through to closing any life cases for the past 2 months! That is bad! Imagine with me, no sales for 2 months and Im getting stressed.
Time flies and July is here and 3 days have passed.
Im going to live my life. Im going to be better. Im going to start writing again, start taking photos again, start working hard and achieving my goals again, Im going to share God's love with people again, Im going to travel again, Im going to serve God's purpose in my life again!
Thank God for the chance to share Christ with Kelvin yesterday and lead him through the sinner's prayers. Yup, praise the Lord!
I feel most satisfied and fulfilled when I led people to Christ! Amen! =)
The whole heaven and angels rejoice!